Plans for the future

Hello, welcome to my 7th blog and maybe my final blog. Today I will let you in on my plans in the near future. As always I am Ivan Justiniano and let's get started.

Well I can't tell you for sure what my future plans are, I am still on the limbo of where to go and what to study. What I can tell you for sure is that I am between criminology or communications. I like to entertain people and I am also interested in law, but I am still unsure on what path I should take.

People have always told me that they see me as an announcer or a news guy, I like the concept of that, because I love to entertain people and to make people laugh, but I am still unsure if a have a future on that. I have to work on my insecurities and on my nerves, sometimes they get the best of me, but other than that I have the voice and the looks.

I like the concept of law and the following of it, so I could see myself as a federal agent of some sort, I like the concept of that , but like on communications, I am still unsure of my future in that. What I can tell you is that is between those two professions.

Now onto the university part, I don't want to study on Puerto Rico, because my chosen professions are not well paid or well thought in P.R., and my opportunities are better in the U.S. I would like to study in universities like Penn State, NYU, UM, UCLA and Loyola, but it all depends on the profession that I choose.

As always I am Ivan Justiniano, and this will not be the last time you will hear of me.
Thank you for everything and Good Night!

Things that I love

Hello, Good Night and welcome to my 6th blog,today is the 4th of April and I will tell you some things that I love. As always I am Ivan Justiniano and lets get started.

Things that I love:

1. Making people laugh: I love to make people laugh. Making people laugh is one of the best feelings there is, just seeing how happy you can make a person, it just makes your day a lot better. I love entertaining people, and making them laugh or have a good time, people say I am funny and fun to be with and that is how I like them to see me, like a funny and fun guy to be with. Just making people laugh, makes me feel better.

2. Being with my friends: I love being with my friends, literally with my friends is the time when I am the happiest. Just being with them, brightens my day, even on the saddest day my friends make me happy and help me, I laugh and I cry with them. All of my best memories are with my friends and I will never forget those memories. I love being with them and I would not trade any of my true friends for anything in this world, they are very special to me and I hope they know it. Friends are like family to me, brothers and sisters.

3. Helping out: I love helping out and lending my hand for help. I feel useful when I am helping other people or helping for a cause. It feels me with joy, just knowing that I could be making a change by planting this little seed using my hands and mind to help others. I love helping little kids, because they are the future and it feels me with joy just looking at them smiling and happy. Also,I love helping nature, cleaning beaches, planting trees. I just love to help out in any way I can, just ask for my help and you have it, guaranteed, or your money back !

4. Having a full conversation with someone: I like whenever I can have a conversation with someone, with a friend, with family, or with whomever. I have learned so much from people and just by talking with them, that I now enjoy just talking and talking for hours. Talking with people is one of the funnest things to do, you share stories and you can learn a lot. I love having full conversations with my friends and family, because I always learn things about them and they always learn things about me and it just makes us be closer and better friends. If you see me, stop me and tell me you want to talk and I will give you my time.

5. Seeing people happy: I love seeing people be happy, specially my friends and family. Whenever they are happy, I am happy. Seeing people happy fills me with joy and it’s a wonderful feeling, especially whenever I am the one that makes them happy. Just looking at someone smiling makes you want to smile, and be happy. Happiness is spread and it is a wonderful thing, spread happiness and joy !

I hope you learned more about me, and what makes me be happy and smile. Every person should love all these things, they fill you with joy and make you happy. I just love seeing that I can make a change in someone’s day or life and it makes me feel wonderful about myself, just knowing someone can be happy because of me, there are no words that can describe that feeling.

This was a short blog, but I wanted to share what made me happy. 

Until tomorrow, I am Ivan Justiniano signing out and good night !

"Ivan, why are you so Insecure?"

Hi, good night and as always welcome to my blog. Today I will talk about a topic I've never answered or never talked about, why am I so insecure.

We could start answering this question by going back to my childhood. As a child I was the tallest kid, you could say one of the hairiest, and partially weird. People made fun of me, starting with my stepfather, he made fun of the size of my head, my face, and how lonely I was. That started my insecurity, seeing how someone close to me insulted me and made fun of me. People on my school also made fun of me, I was rejected and called names, here comes "big foot", or here comes "chewbacca". I was insulted and called names and that made me feel insecure, people rejected me and I felt like a had no true friends. Right around 8th grade, I had to leave my mom's house, and move to my father's, because of problems I had with my stepfather, he continued insulting me, through my childhood, but it got worse, he took into a habit to hit me, on 8th grade, I got tired of being bullied by him and I left. I was very sad at school, and my so called friends always talked about this subject in a jokingly manner, of course, what was I going to do, I faked being happy about this situation, but deep inside I was dying of anger and killing myself of what did I do to deserve this. Nobody helped me with this and I started absorbing all the pain and never letting it go.

After the series of events that I was having in my home, I started dealing with it on 9th grade, forgot about, didn't think of it, and kept it inside, I did not tell anyone how I was feeling, because I felt I had no friends, but fake friends and I was angry at the world, so I started faking confidence, and happiness. If you asked people, they would say I was a happy person and a confident person or still am, but its all a lie, I fake it, so I don't live in this bubble of problems, I just forget it and move on, holding it inside and inside, and this contributed even more to my insecurity. I didn't open to people, because I didn't know who was going to help and who was going to hurt me. So I didn't have many friends. In 10th grade is when my insecurity went from 100% to 175%. I was rejected by friends and by the people I liked, there was this problem with this one girl that I liked her and she liked me, I thought it all was going good, we were very good friends and I, maybe, wanted to go to the next step, I wrote her a letter, as an assignment of a class, a love letter, where I wrote all the thing I liked and loved about her, a very sweet letter, I put my heart into it, I showed my weakness, her, and she took advantage, after the letter she decided to not talk to me, I was left wondering "what did I do wrong?" I tried talking to her, but she just flat out ignored me, and I was left feeling like nothing, literally like nothing, my heart sank to the ground and there I was not trusting anyone else. Now on eleventh grade I have 5 best friends and another handful of friends, but I still have a great amount of insecurity, and in my mind I feel like I should not be with them too much, because I don't want to bother them or pull them away from me, because they are very important to me, and I don't want to lose them, and I feel like a obstruction in their life, I tell them that they can be fully honest with me, that when I am bothering them they can tell me, and this is a product of my insecurity. I also, don't like when I fall in love, don't get me wrong it is and amazing feeling, but me, Ivan Justiniano, Love is not for me, because I always end up getting hurt, sometimes I think there might be a connection, but there really isn't anything. I show my weakness and I continue to get hurt. Sometimes I try or make an effort with that person I like, but it never ends good for me. I haven't had a girlfriend, I haven't had a first kiss, most of the time I feel alone in this life and I ask myself, "does my life have a purpose?". I still don't now if people are there for me or if they are there to hurt me, and I close myself, because of my insecurity.

Don't get me wrong, there are people that are there for me, tell me nice things about me, excellent things, but I just cant believe it, yet, maybe this a product of my insecurity, maybe.

There you have it, the question everyone wanted to know about Ivan Justiniano, Why am I so insecure? because i feel like odds are never in my favor, but I will still continue fighting for what I want, when I can. Hope you all understood and please don't take pity of me, I don't like it.

As always I am Ivan Justiniano and I hope you learned something about me. Until next time, and good night !

My Best Friends

Hello there, welcome to my 4th blog, as always I am Ivan Justiniano and today I will get a little bit more personal, I will talk about my best friends.

I have 5 in total, but I love them all the same. Here they are:

1. Maru - Out of all of them, the one that I know the most, or known the longest. She has been my friend since 8th grade, but it wasn't until this year that we became best friends. She has always been there for me, in my best and in my worst, she has seen me cry, laugh, she has seen me mad and happy. She has all my trust and I have all of hers. We've been on ups and down, but deep inside she knows how much I love her and care for her and her family and I know how much she loves me and loves how I am. Sometimes she feels left out, because my other best friends are in 10th grade and she is in 11th, but I hope she understands that I see them less than i see her and that she will always be my friend no matter what. She is the one that knows my secrets, and the one that knows me the best, I am blessed to have her.

2. Adrianna - Adri, is like a sister to me, she is like the sister I always wanted. I love messing with her, pulling jokes on her, making her laugh, seeing her happy, and making sure that she is well. You could say that I could be protective of her, but that's because I like to make sure that she is safe and that she is happy. She is very important to me and I like to support her in every way I can. Sometimes she takes things to personal or literal, but that is the way she is. I could never be mad at her, she means too much to me for me to be mad or not talk to her. She is very fun and I love the way she is and how she is, I wouldn't change a thing about her, she is special just how she is, and everyone should be lucky to have her as a friend.

3. Astrid - Astrid is like a sister to me, too. She is very smart, she is an outgoing person, and she is a very happy person and a very loving person. I love the way she laughs and the way she is in general, everything about her is awsome. She is very kind and fun to be with. I trust her with my deepest secrets and I would not change her for anybody. I joke with her very often and I love to see her happy and to see that she is well. She gets mad sometimes, but she could never be mad for a long time, she couldn't even hurt a bug, but that is what I like about her. She looks like a saint but deep inside she is a devil ! Beware of Astrid, she will eat your soul ! No, but really, she is very sweet and fun to be with. Love you Astrid !!!

4. Sofia - What can I say about Sofia, the dorkiest and funniest person I have met. She always makes me smile and I am never bored when I am with her. Her jokes and her silly faces and sounds always brighten my day. Honestly, she was invisible to me before this year, I mean I knew she existed, but I never talked with her, it was this year that I started to know her, thanks to Oratory and Forensics, and now I know the great, funny, nice, silly, dorky, and what a good friend she is. She has a special place in my heart, and is the crazy one, out of all of my best friends.

5. Gabriela - And last, but certainly not least, Gabriela. She looks like a scary and a very mean person, but deep inside she is a sweetheart. Sometimes the way she looks at you could be that one of not caring or an angry kind of look, but she doesn't do it in purpose, it comes naturally to her. She is actually very funny, fun to be with, sweet, kind, honest, she has a good sense of humor and she is a very loving person. She is very special to me, I started to know her this school year, and I feel like she has been a friend of mine for a longer time. I think we share things in common and I like to talk with her and her sister, her sister is a lot like her, and very fun and funny too, love that little girl to death. I like to be with them and make them laugh, the "Sm8's" as I call them. It makes me sad that she will go to Miami on summer to start a new life over there, when I first heard this news it did not hit me that I was going to lose a very special person in my life, but later that night it hit me and I cried, because I was sad that I met this wonderful person in her last year in Puerto Rico and now she was going away and I was going to lose one of my Best friends, it still makes me sad every time I think of it. I just hope we can maintain this friendship and that she will not forget me, because I will certainly not forget her.

These are my best friends and I would not change them for anyone or anything. I love them all equally, but in different ways. I just hope that I will not lose any of their friendships, especially Gabriela's, because she is moving and it makes me sad, but happy for her because she will be better over there and I wish her the best.

Until tomorrow, I am Ivan Justiniano, and I hope you learned something about me today. Good Night !

My Life... Monday 31st of March and Tuesdat 1st of April

Hi there, welcome to the 3rd installment of my daily blogs. Today we will talk a bit of what happened yesterday and today in my life.

These last two days, were not that interesting in terms of blog material, but I will tell and it may interest some of you guys. Yesterday I was in a Forensics meeting, in which I am the team helper and supporter, and we reviewed the time we have until the competitions and the plays each people had. Today it was April Fool's, when I got to school the seniors looked suspicious, they were laughing and looking at the entrance of the High School, but not many people noticed it, of course, I knew the whole thing, well not everything but I knew they were going to do something and I had the idea of what it was going to be. They built a series of obstacles in the entrance of the High School and in the hallways, they messed with some class rooms, changing the order of things, they also put vaseline in the rails and door handles, it was kind of fun and funny. They ended the day messing with the freshmen, getting them wet, with hoses, baloons, water guns, etc. If you ask me, it was fun, but it did not fit with the theme of April fools, but that is just my opinion. I did something of my own, I pranked two of my best friends by hiding their books, their food, and their backpacks, I did it with the intention of a funny prank, but they took it too personal and one of them told the vice-principal, and complained. They both had an idea it was me, because I am not a great liar, but they were not sure if it was me. I ended up giving them the things, one by one, but to the one that complained I had to give it all to her, but the other one still doesn't have her backpack. They are both mad at me, very mad, I just hope that at the end of the day they forgive me, I wanted to prank them not them mad at me. They don’t know how to take jokes sometimes and they get mad very often, so that is something that I am not adjusted to it yet, but I love them and they are my best friends, so hopefully tomorrow it all goes back to normal, and they know it was a prank.

As always I am Ivan Justiniano, and I will see you tommorow!

Relationship Advice

Hello there, welcome to another blog written by me, Ivan Justiniano. Today we will focus on the subject of love. Love is very important in human life, we all want to be loved, and we all want to be with someone else and not to be alone. Some people get loved more than others, some have more relationships, but we all want love and a partner in life.

Now, what is the best way to find a girlfriend?

I will give you my best advice on how to conquer that woman you love. Sometimes is not as easy as it looks and you have to be careful what you say and what you do. First, you have to socialize and mingle with the girl you're interested in. Second, have a very good sense of humor, make her laugh and treat her well, make her see how good you are and how funny and sweet you can be. Be a very good gentlemen and romantic, but be romantic after you know she's into you, be spontaneous, girls love that. Compliment her and be sure you have things in common. Third, be hygienic, smell good, girls love boys that smell good, shower often, shave and get a haircut to give a good impression. But the most important thing is to be yourself, be who you are, don't try to be something you're not; she will fall in love with you and the way you are, she will take your imperfections and join it with hers and together mix two negatives and make a positive. Love is a wonderful thing, be sure you pick the right person to love!

This one is for all of the women reading this. How to conquer a man?

Now we will make a U-turn, to the other direction, and I will give you advice on how to conquer that man you want. First make sure you flirt with him, hint him that you like him, but don’t make it too obvious so that he will work to get you. Make him happy and make him laugh, we love funny and fun women, show us how smart you can be, but how fun you can also be. Be sweet and a very good friend to him, listen to him, share stories, talk with him, don’t start ignoring him and playing hard to get, because he will not know if you like him or not. Be yourself, be cute, be funny, be nice, but be yourself, because we fall in love with who you are and how you are and you should not change for anybody, if he loves you he will love you how you are, even if you are without makeup, in pajamas, a bad hair day, he will be there in your goods and bads, if he truly cares about you.

We should love those that are with us in goods and bads, we should hold on to those people, because they are hard to find in this day and age, love friends, family, and also that special someone.

This closes my second day, I hope I helped some of you and remember, I am Ivan Justiniano and I will see you tomorrow!

Who I Am

Hi, I am Ivan Justiniano from Rio Grande, Puerto Rico. Today I will start my English class blog, in which I will expose my teenage problems in my daily life and the process I go through to solve them. I start today, Sunday, March 30th of 2014 and I will end on Saturday, April 5th of 2014, but you never know you'll have to stay tuned to see how it goes and if it continues.

This week My Class and I had our Ring Ceremony, it was very exciting, and it culminated our 11th grade and we took a step forward into our Senior Year. We laughed and remembered all the good times we had on our 11th grade and all the time we have spent together. After the Ring Ceremony we went to a get together, a little party, and we bonded as a class, we all had a great time, but some more than other. I myself had a good time, but it could had of been better. On Saturday night, I went to a friend's house, with a couple of other people and we watched Mr. Bean's Holiday, and had fun through the neighborhood. Today I started this blog, and will continue writing what happens every day until April 5th. Thank you for reading and remember to check back tomorrow night, as always I am Ivan Justiniano and may God be with you.